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Monday, May 11, 2009

Running

So I set out on my run today, in my new shoes, down towards my bush track.
Step by step my mind began to clear of everything petty and focused on what was important.

As I ran alongside the creek (which looked like something off LOTR mind you) I began to ponder how my running was quite similar to my journey with God.

Bare with me...

1st- you have to want it.

Have you noticed how far you will go with something if your heart’s not in it. If I’m out running and I really don’t want to be there...I won’t last that long. In order for me to move forward and closer to God- I need to want it, even when it’s hard and I feel discouraged it’s about persevering because in the long run...I know it’s worth it.


2nd- You need support/ Equip yourself

If you're serious about running you don't just chuck on anything and go for a run barefoot. No- you wear the appropriate clothing, you need proper supportive running shoes in order to protect you from getting hurt (hopefully). Just as your relationship with God, if you're serious you will do whatever it takes to support and protect yourself in your journey with Him. In Ephesians 6 it talks about protecting yourself with Armor of God! This is something that we should take up and put on daily!!!


3rd- Water/ Food

Speaks for itself really- I went for a run the other day on a completely empty stomach- not cool. Or when I go without sufficient water it feels like my brain is thumping against the sides of my head- I have to stop, it’s unbareable and so bad on the body. If we try and keep journeying forward with God without actually investing time with Him, learning from Him, growing in Him- we become stale...stagnant. We have nothing fresh to continue with. Our words become lifeless and we become less creative, passionate, loving, spirit-led....well maybe I am just speaking for myself. But I become more and more distant from Him and become more like the world. If I don't feed off His word and His love, it's only natural that I become hungry- the only problem is where I go to satisfy this hunger? 


4th- One eye on the now, One eye looking ahead!

Especially on bush runs, a wrongly placed foot can quickly become disaster. And when you're in the middle of bush with no phone and no-one knowing where you are....it's not really an ideal situation. Today I noticed how important it was for me to focus on each one of my steps as well as keeping an eye on my direction and upcoming branches and obstacles...not to mention spider webs (ahhh).

It really hit me how I need to do this in life as well. I have a tendency to charge through the day in order to experience the next day, without REALLY experiencing the present day! The amount of things I must miss God doing because I mind is focused on another day...with this in mind you need to keep a healthy balance of looking ahead....especially in regards to eternity!


5th- What voice will you listen to?

I get to this stage in my run where no matter how loud my music is, this voice pierces through all of it. "Just make it to the next corner and that will do! The hill's too steep I can't do that, Everything hurts I can't go on, I can just stop for a bit- I won't be long!" Most of the time...I then I grit my teeth and run even faster and harder with more passion and determination..however there is the odd ocassion I give in!


Unfortunately we allow this to happen far too often in our life. We get soo surrounded in "life" we can no longer hear the voice of God, or sometimes we are at a really good place with God yet that other voice still penetrates through. The devil himself, or by using other people, speaks into our lives criticizing us, insulting us, questioning us- and the sad thing is...we listen! As we listen to their voices sometimes we actually start to believe what they are saying- "we can't do this, it is impossible, I am too weak". Our journey is hindered...sometimes even stopped completely.


Is this the voice of the Almighty God- I don't think so! In fact i know so! We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. He promises to be by our side and to never let us go! We can run that hill in our lives! We can persevere even when it hurts! We can't afford to stop and listen in the wrong direction- there's too much at stake! 


I will keep running- even when it hurts! Because despite what I hear and sometimes feel, my God is soo worth it and I only want to be taking steps that GLORIFY Him, that HONOUR Him, that LOVE Him, that SERVE Him and that bring me and most importantly OTHERS into a closer relationship with Him!






Sunday, May 10, 2009

Journal Entries

12.05.06

'Do not try to call them back to where they were, and do not try to call them to where you are, beautiful as that place may seem to you. You must have the courage to go with them to a place that neither you nor they have been before.' - Vincent Donovan

12.05.07

It's about time I let some of me out and let more of you in!

28.05.07

It is time...the time is now...

- Time to live a life of LOVE
- Time to live a life of HOPE
- Time to live a life of PURPOSE
- Time to live a life of REPENTENCE
- Time to live a life of PURITY
- Time to live a life of JOY
- Time to live a life of BLESSING
- Time to live a life of ENCOURAGEMENT
- Time to live a life SPIRIT-LED
- Time to live a life SET APART
- Time to live a life MAKING HISTORY




Friday, May 8, 2009

For His Glory!

Loving this song at the moment. Loving Tim Hughes really...

My actions, thoughts and purpose for each day totally change when I re-focus myself on doing it all for the glory of God. Not for myself...but for Him. Not only does He then have access to use me more freely each day, but I am always more aware and alert of the ways He does work in and through me! He's just soo good! I wish I could explain it more but I can't. How can you use words to describe the glory and power, yet love and gentleness that we find in our God!

Living for your glory - Tim Hughes

What good is it to gain the whole world
But lose your soul?
What good is it to make a sweet sound
But remain proud?
In view of God's mercy, I offer my all

And take my life, let it be everything, all of me
Here I am, use me for Your glory
In everything I say and do, let my life honour You
Here I am living for Your glory

The road I'm on that leads nowhere without You
And the life that I live that finds meaning and surrender
In view of God's mercy, I offer my all

Seeking first the Kingdom
Of my Lord



Amen x

Monday, May 4, 2009

Words

The smallest word can be soo powerful! So beautiful! Soo releasing!

As i reflect on some words, so much life springs from them. As i wrote last week on Psalm 46:10 each word in that verse reveals and says soo much- incredible.

I looked up the meaning of a few words I'm loving at the moment... 

captivate |ˈkaptəˌvāt|

verb [ trans. ]

attract and hold the interest and attention of; charm : he was captivated by her beauty | [as adj. ] ( captivating)


arise |əˈrīz|

verb ( past arose |əˈrōz|; past part. arisen |əˈrizən|) [ intrans. ]

1 (of a problem, opportunity, or situation) emerge; become apparent

come into being; originate

( arise from/out of) occur as a result of

2 formal or poetic/literary get or stand up


surrender |səˈrendər|

verb [ intrans. ]

cease resistance to an enemy or opponent and submit to their authority 

[ trans. ] give up or hand over (a person, right, or possession), typically on compulsion or demand 

[ trans. ] (in a sports contest) lose (a point, game, or advantage) 

( surrender to) abandon oneself entirely to (a powerful emotion or influence); give in to 



Abba |ˈäbä; ˈabä|

noun

(in the New Testament) an intimate term for God as father.

(in the Syrian Orthodox and Coptic churches) a title given to bishops and patriarchs.

ORIGIN via Greek from Aramaic ‛abbā ‘daddy.’


brew |broō|

verb [ trans. ]

1 make by soaking, boiling, and fermentation.

2 make (tea or coffee) by mixing it with hot water 

3 [ intrans. ] (of an unwelcome event or situation) begin to develop


= I will explain brew in other blog, there is reason for this.


But just for a giggle....


moist |moist|

adjective

slightly wet; damp or humid : the air was moist and heavy.

(of the eyes) wet with tears : her brother's eyes became moist.

(of a climate) rainy.

Medicine marked by a fluid discharge.

DERIVATIVES

moistly |ˈmɔɪstli| adverb

moistness |ˈmɔɪs(t)n1s| noun

ORIGIN late Middle English : from Old French moiste, based on Latin mucidus ‘moldy’ (influenced by musteus ‘fresh,’ from mustum: see must 2 ).


Apart from this last one- I think these words speak for themselves in what God is speaking to me at the moment!

My Abba! In you, through you and for you I breathe and live each day!
Everything I possibly try to write falls soo short in bringing you the glory in which you soo clearly deserve! But I am learning to devote each day, each opportunity, each moment to make it count and bring you a smile! I have soo much to learn...but I am willing! Adjust and position my heart closer and closer ...and even closer to you. Cause God if you are not in it- then I want none of it!  Abba you hear my cry- you are my cry!

I love you in a capacity I never knew I could!
 x o x


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Proof- open your eyes

I understand some people need to 'see things to believe it'. But it makes me giggle...or sad..... (probably more the latter), that people need to physically see God to believe He exists. 

Have they not opened their eyes at all? How do you honestly think creation came to be? Out of nowhere? Evolution? Have you not seen the night sky or studied the stars? Have you not looked at the intricate details of each petal that makes up each flower? Have you not been overwhelmed by the complexity of our human body to function each day the way it does? Have you not watched a sunrise over a beach in all it's beauty and splendour? Have you not stood at the top of a snowy mountain surrounded by pure white and glory?

I watched this video on you tube...

How can we trust that which is unseen? 
Simple.... Look

Look for the proof...

The shadow proves the sunshine
The echo proves the sound
The steam proves the heat
The watermark proves the flood
The rustling proves the wind

We struggle to believe 
What we cannot see
But we cannot see
Because we are not really looking

The creation proves the creator
The heavens proves His glory
The Son proves the Father
The cross proves His LOVE

Proof? Open your eyes...


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Keep seeking!

A verse given to me today:

Jeremiah 29:11-14 ... with emphasis on v 13 & 14

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord.


Powerful.....

An amazing day!

WOW! How do I even begin to describe the incredible day I had in the presence of my God? 

ACOM Personal Formation- Group Catch Up

It was 8:45 when we arrived at the little waterside town of Tahlee, a historical place full of facts & beauty. My first bit of entertainment was playing the "Let's count the wallabies" game.... (total of 8 FYI) but anyway... our group arrived and as our facilitator started us off the day... he introduced the theme of 'Spiritual Growth' for the day with 3 minor themes.
1. Be still and know that I am God  2. God in surprising places and 3. God in question.

For each theme we went away by ourselves with little tasks for each one, but mainly to meditate and just focus on God. I could write 5 blogs on the whole day but i'll just share my first session.

To begin with.... Psalm 46:10 - "Be still and know that I am God" is a funnily enough a verse I've been focusing on for the last few weeks specifically, so I should almost have expected God to bring it up today but ...I was still shocked?!

So I start out walking down this path so excited for what the next hour would hold, I have this massive smile on my face I can't remove, I look up and all around there is the tallest bamboo I have EVER seen swaying gently with the sea breeze. The best part was the cracking sound it made as it moved back and forth- just glorious... you had to be there!

I keep walking down this path continually having my breath taken away at the beauty and majesty God is laying out in front of me. I come across this wooden open boat shed and as I walk around the side, see this wooden seat out on the water at the end of a jetty as if it was made and put there just for me!

In light of my last blog- I truly fell in love with my First love all over again and in a completely new way. I have never felt soo romanced and like a daughter of the King freely playing with her Daddy all at the same time. I felt soo free and full of joy. 

As I sat there and was still, I meditated on each word of the verse- such a small verse but oh so powerful! I focused on knowing God as my first love, and as the wind almost blew me off the chair and into the water behind me He reminded me of His power! The waves hit the wall and splashed me on the face again and again and I thought of God's playful nature and sense of humour. Whilst I sat still, God's creation was forever moving around me yet He became still in order that we may have an intimate moment together!

I am so IN love with you God! Thanks for an incredible day x

Sunday, April 26, 2009

That lonely feeling


So if I'm going to be honest on here I thought I'd write about being single and the joys that brings (with a hint of sarcasm). Normally I'm fine and quite enjoy the single life, I like my freedom of being able to do what I want and when I want. However, with recent times seeing close friends getting engaged or hooked up with a long time crush...I feel like all of a sudden my time's running out and there's something wrong with me. What? I'm only 21 I shouldn't feel like this at all...

Why is there this pressure in churches to be dating someone or married young?

Anyway- I've been journeying with God for years focusing on my love relationship with Him in order that He will teach me and prepare me for a relationship with my future boyfriend/husband! I feel now more than ever that he will be more amazing than I imagine and am praying for. I am so excited that when we are together he will not hinder nor distract me from my journey with God, but rather support, encourage and challenge me and together we will do crazy things for His kingdom!!!

So whilst some nights I come home and feel total doubt and complete loneliness as i try to get to sleep, I'm moving into a place with God where there is more excitement and trust as I focus on Him and His faithfulness.
The thing is God knows the desires of my hearts, and whoever this guy is I am so certain (and totally excited) that God is preparing not only his heart but mine also for when we are together!

I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting


And like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart

I write this primarily to keep myself accountable never to settle for second best...

EVER!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Expectation

Psalm 4:3

In the morning , O Lord, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait in expectation.

I think this is a great prayer to start the day. We need to have hearts of expectation each day for what God can do through us! We so often fail to acknowledge God as our Lord each day and therefore fail to let Him use us. It's not only us that miss out but also those in which we could have impacted!

I hate to think of the things I have missed out on being a part of because I didn't surrender myself to God each day and wait in expectation. Nor do I want you to miss out either...

I know what I prayed this morning!

Friday, April 10, 2009

This fallen world....


I've just watched Hotel Rwanda (by myself.....bad move) and I was doing ok. I watched the whole film in silence...in total shock... but with no tears. Girls naked being raped, dead bodies in hundreds, thousands... up to a million. Precious lives being slashed apart with a machete. For what...? Hate? The film finished and it hit me! I wept....in fact I sobbed and I sobbed! It's tooo much was all I could say again and again....this world is too much!

As I cried out to God over the millions of His children's lives that died in Rwanda and are STILL being murdered in Rwanda and all across this world....all I could say was...it's too much!

But it's more than that....as I knelt on the ground & sat with God, more than ever I realised the world we live in and what it is coming too. Things are not going to get better, people will never stop hating on each other. God never planned for this...He didn't plan for any of this! How did we as humans, who were made in His image become such monstrosities? Sin is just soo huge and real in this world...

What can i do...? I'll continue to do what God has placed on my heart to do...and one life at a time we will see restoration and renewal as His children turn back to Him!

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me to preach GOOD NEWS to the POOR
He has sent me to bind up the BROKEN HEARTED,
To proclaim FREEDOM for the CAPTIVES
and release from darkness the PRISONERS,
To proclaim the year of the Lord's favour
and the day of vengeance of OUR GOD,
to COMFORT ALL WHO MOURN,
and PROVIDE for those who GRIEVE in Zion -
To bestow on them A CROWN OF BEAUTY instead of ashes
The oil of GLADNESS instead of mourning
and a garment of PRAISE instead of a spirit of despair.
(Isaiah 61: 1 -3)

What can I say? What can I do?
But offer this heart O lord
Completely to you.....

Nat x





What will you do?