Unbelief

Great night! Great worship! Great teaching!

Went to Powerhouse tonight and am just reflecting on the msg. Josh, pastor from CCC Oxford Falls, spoke about handing over our unbelief to God.

In Mark 9 Jesus is with a father and his boy who is in need of some serious healing.

The father says to Jesus, "If you can do anything, take pity on us and help us."

Key word= if

Jesus throws it backs in his court...." I can do anything IF you believe.."

The father says this, "I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief."

I was challenged with the unbelief in my own life.

What areas do I say I believe, but underneath have doubt.

I think of my sister and my mum and how much I long to see them know Jesus and be in love with Him. I believe that that day will come...but I think there's a whole lot of unbelief that accompanies it.

I believe by stepping out of my comfort zone, surrendering myself to the Spirit- God could use me to lead incredible worship. However- if I believed this 100%...why haven't I said yes yet?!

I believe that God does have someone incredible picked out for me and that my time will come, but I still get upset and struggle at times when everything around me is about boys, weddings and love- all great things, however I find myself continually joking that i'll be that old single crazy cat lady that lives down the street.

For years it's been on my heart that "God has set me apart to be something special" (quoted from my mirror) which I totally believe, yet there's in my head... insecurities, imperfections, past failures, lack of experience, knowledge and wisdom that cause too much of an obstacle for me to REALLY believe in God's power and faithfulness.

These areas of unbelief limit the potential of what I am allowing God to do in my life. He is willing....I am the one who believes He is incapable or unwilling.

He is willing= Fact

He is capable= Fact

God- more than ever I want to believe with every part of me that you are willing and capable in all these areas and everything else I bring before you. I'm sorry when I limit you in my own life because I place human limitations on ...you- a Holy indescribable being. Help me in my unbelief! Please...