In the midst of change.....

Mumford and Sons gettin me through...

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time

You take what is yours and I'll take mine

Now let me at the truth

Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears

I can see widows and orphans through my tears

I know my call despite my faults

And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope

So come out of your cave walking on your hands

And see the world hanging upside down

You can understand dependence

When you know the maker's hand

Cause I need freedom now

And I need to know how

To live my life as it's meant to be.

- The Cave

Jesus- I pray that it's in your obedience I'm walking. There's nowhere else I'd rather be. It hurts and it's hard. However you're bigger and better and worth ever step and every tear. I believe that but greater than that I trust you with that and with each and every one of my steps.

I trust you.

I trust you.

I trust you.

Today and the next xox

That lonely feeling

So if I'm going to be honest on here I thought I'd write about being single and the joys that brings (with a hint of sarcasm). Normally I'm fine and quite enjoy the single life, I like my freedom of being able to do what I want and when I want. However, with recent times seeing close friends getting engaged or hooked up with a long time crush...I feel like all of a sudden my time's running out and there's something wrong with me. What? I'm only 21 I shouldn't feel like this at all...

Why is there this pressure in churches to be dating someone or married young?

Anyway- I've been journeying with God for years focusing on my love relationship with Him in order that He will teach me and prepare me for a relationship with my future boyfriend/husband! I feel now more than ever that he will be more amazing than I imagine and am praying for. I am so excited that when we are together he will not hinder nor distract me from my journey with God, but rather support, encourage and challenge me and together we will do crazy things for His kingdom!!!

So whilst some nights I come home and feel total doubt and complete loneliness as i try to get to sleep, I'm moving into a place with God where there is more excitement and trust as I focus on Him and His faithfulness.

The thing is God knows the desires of my hearts, and whoever this guy is I am so certain (and totally excited) that God is preparing not only his heart but mine also for when we are together!

I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

And like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart

I write this primarily to keep myself accountable never to settle for second best...

EVER!