Reflections- Motions or LIFE?

Thoughts...

For a month now I feel like I keep having out of body experiences where I can see what Im not doing  and know what I should be doing...but still remain ..stagnant. I know I was created for soo much more. Step up Nat...


Been reflecting alot on how I'm actually doing and feeling, am i just going through the motions of each day or REALLY living out the potential and fullness of each opportunity. Im sick of the day to day. I want to be obedient and attuned with His spirit- ready to jump in whatever direction He leads. I want to be continually suprised by the ways He chooses to use me. I am continuously suprised.....but I know there's soo much more out there Im missing. Life should be soo much more than this. I want to live unexpectedly... on edge...not knowing how the day will turn out. I want to rest my head each night knowing that I gave it my all.

And it starts now, one prayer and one step of faith.......followed by another and another....

Conquered

Heel side- conquered.

Falling leaf- conquered.

Toe side- pretty much conquered.

Linking turns- on the way to being conquered.

All in all i'd say snowboarding....conquered!

It was 6am Friday morning and the word 'cold' had a whole new meaning! Walking became a whole new adventure as most of the ground was covered in ice. With 40 cm of fresh powder and an ongoing snowfall- we were pretty keen to hit the slopes. The time finally came, walking past the hot donut shop, up the stairs which the previous year was a painful obstacle in ski boots, in my snow boots I almost frollicked my way to the top. There in front of us- sheer beauty! The slopes and everything before it engulfed in white! You can't help but connect with God in a whole new way...

After our group lesson and other boarders dropping out like flies, it was time to bite my lip and hit the chairlift. With very brief advice to getting on and off I took to the challenge and depending on your perspective failed and succeeded each time for the rest of that day. I always made it to the top, generally pain free but always with a goofy stack accompanying the trip.

The one thing I love about chair lifts though is the people you meet. Being stuck on an elevated chair for at least 5-10mins with absolute strangers provides the breeding ground for great conversations with great people! To professional business men, fathers, irish backpackers to people from Strathfield, to others who wakeboard.....you can meet some amazing people!

All in all- I got it! I could get down the hill without stacking it. I could go down heel side (facing forward) and toe side (facing uphill) which led me to link my turns...semi successfully. The after effects resulted in pain in every core muscle in an intense way. And I thought I was fit..whoa!

I have never hurt soo much in my life! I've also never fallen over soo many times either! On my butt, knees, head, shoulder, elbows...you name it I fell on it! Motto- Go Hard THEN Go Home!

Was it worth it? Oh my heck yes! I have just entered into my eternal love affair with snow boarding. . . . . 

Fears Shmears

I'd hate to think that I let a four letter word get in the way of me experiencing the most out of life.

Which is why I'm making a conscious effort to go out of my comfort zone and do the things I normally wouldn't do! Example one- surfing.

Next adventure- snow boarding this friday and saturday. Not long enough to become pro but long enough to grasp the basics. In my head I have mad images of me making it down the slopes elegantly but with style, but realistically I don't have that much faith in myself, I know it will be far from that....I'm petrified!

So i write this in one piece, generally with no scars or bruises...we'll see how it is when I recount of my adventures next week...


Nice knowing ya x

Change

is constant...

Does it have to be this often though?

At the moment

- Found my journal I was looking for...was in the door of my car the whole time.

- Thinking of the quote someone told me " Never give up on something you don't go a day without thinking of" ... hmmm not sure if I want to agree...

- Continually getting headaches going from hot to cold to hot to cold....Bring on Summer

- Feeling heavy burdens that I need to hand to God...I want to hand to God. My pride and weakness are serving as massive obstacles...shouldnt my pride and weakness be my motive to give it over?

- Need a holiday...feel a weekend up at Nelsons Bay is on the Horizon...

- Appreciating the sun as opposed to rain...hope it holds out till Friday. Another surf adverture awaits...

- Have had a revelation about the book Revelations...I think it's my new favourite!

- am sick of gossip....Girls can be cruel.

- reading a book a month placing me in the top 1% of the world.

- facing my next fear in 9 days....snowboarding!

- am loving the fact I get to study the book I love- yet get a qualification for it...feels like Im being cheeky!

- am still falling in love with my first! He is so gracious to me at the moment...

Ripples

"I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples..."


Mother Teresa

Today

What a great day!

I'm absolutely knackered but when I think back on the day I can have a little laugh!

Great company! Great weather! Great waves...

I'm sore in places that normally aren't! I have bruises in places I don't think I've ever had!

I pushed myself in ways I didn't think I would! I got dumped and hit in the head...a couple of times. But was able to get back up and laugh it off.

The sun kissing my face, the spray casting full rainbows just for a glance, the panoramic view of sand and cliff....

I think I'm in love...

Stunted souls

“If we could see beneath the surface of many a life, we would see thousands of people within the church are suffering spiritually from ‘arrested development’. They never reach spiritual maturity; they never do all the good they intended to do; and this is due to the fact that at some point in their lives they refused to go further…. They refused to take the one step which would have opened up for themselves a new and vital development. They suffer on in life as stunted souls!”

- Olive Wyon, The School of Prayer.

Where could it be?

Alright whoever has it- fess up!

How can it be that out of the 15 journals i CAN find....the one that I'm looking for isn't one of them? Soo typical! To add to the problem I can't remember what it looks like. I just know I wrote something in it March last year and need it...well want it!

Hmmm...I couldn't get to sleep last night over it...

It's out there...

She knows...

To one of God's incredible daughters,

I am thinking of you! I am fighting for you! I am praying for you! I am your cheerleader! I will always encourage you and speak words of purpose and love into your life! I pray that you would begin to see, not only what I see in you but what your Heavenly Daddy sees- everyday!

You look at yourself and see a crumpled mess.

I look at you and see the beauty of God's grace.

You look at yourself and see weakness & despair.

I look at you and see a pillar of strength & rays of Hope.

You look at yourself and see insecurities and failures.

I look at you and see a healed heart. I see past, present and future victories.

You look at yourself and see doubt and uncertainty.

I look at you and see a God who defines faithfulness and certainty.

You look at yourself and see a hypocrite

I look at you and see a Daughter of the King with all blemishes removed!

You look at yourself and see no value or love.

I look at you and see an invaluable creation knitted together with love.

You look at yourself and can't see past the pain.

I look at you and see Jesus surrendering Himself for your very pain.

Even though I know you don't believe it the facts remain true-

You are Incredible

You are a Stunner- Beautiful inside and out

You are worth more than any engagement ring goin around.

You are worth dying for!

You are a warrior!

You are a pillar of Strength.

You are a beacon of light and of hope!

You are a role model.

You are created for more than second best.

You are Unique!

You are loved beyond description.

You are a Princess- a Daughter of the King!

You are a CHILD OF GOD! That in itself is beyond comprehension....

You are amazing...

If I believe this of you- how much more must God think this of you!